No More Security Blanket

Well last night Mr. Crawford was tested for his orange belt and passed so now we are going to be in different classes. I knew this was going to happen but now it has and I have to deal with it. I know eventually I will be an orange belt but, it is going to be strange going to the yellow belt class without Brian there. I guess I am feeling a little nervous about the whole thing as this would be stepping out of my comfort zone a little bit. Its not like I need to have Brian there everywhere I go but, it was nice knowing he was there. That's why hence my title, No More Security Blanket.

After our class on Monday I did come back for Brian's orange belt class and it was awesome watching that class. There sure are a lot of orange belts in that 8:30 class. As I sat there watching, I started to have some self doubt set in and was wondering if I have what it takes to get there. I know I have improved since I started as a White belt but, have come to the realization that I will have to step up more to the plate. I do practice at home but realize that it might not be enough and that I will have to practice even more.I have always known I need to practice more but, sometimes I lose the motivation and try to make excuses for myself for not practicing a lot more. Like oh I am too tired tonight or I have something else that needs to be done.

I have decided, New Year, New Challenges for myself. I have to be my own person when it comes to my Kung Fu Journey. Ask for help when I need it. I can't compare myself to anyone else and I have to look out for me and focus on my learning.

Well I guess that's all I have to say for now. Good luck to everyone who has joined up for the next UBBT. I someday would like to also be in that challenge.

Susan Crawford.